assistant

SYLLABICATION: as·sis·tant

PRONUNCIATION:   -sstnt

NOUN: One that assists; a helper.

ADJECTIVE: 1. Holding an auxiliary position; subordinate. 2. Giving aid; auxiliary.

maybe I mis-read it but does it say "secretly eventhough you're the assistant you will be forced to do the work of both the assistant and the head because no one else will..."

maybe I need a new perscription but i could have sworn that I was nearsighted....

I shouldn't be worrying about this. I should be working on college applications. I should be writing my article for december. I should be working on my creative writing assignment. I'm not though.

I can't do this. this is not my job. this is not what i signed up for. I wanted to help. Not have the whole fucking thing handed to me because no one stepped the fuck up. Nevermind all my bullshit about "it has to get done. nevermind who does it."

I DID IT!

I SHOULDN'T HAVE HAD TO DO IT!

this was...and let me be perfectly clear about this...NOT MY FUCKING JOB!

somehow though people have decided that it is.

so i had two weekends...not weeks...weekends. The first I bought the fabric and started. Then I got sick. Very sick. I was in bed for three days. Did anyone come by and pick up fabric?no. Did anyone even call? no. I had to. I had to call them and tell them to come get it. Did they do anything with it while they had it? no. They waited until that next weekend...when I completed therest of the costumes...granted I had help then...one other person sewing. One.

but I am the one being told that the costumes aren't right or they don't fit or this or that or being reminded that I'm not Mauren. I know I'm not Mauren. I'm actually quite proud of the fact that we are different people. I don't like being reminded that I'm not her as if that was a flaw on my part. No one else in my family sews. I had to teach myself. I don't have her equipment or connections...

everything that I've done...the cast of over 40...was essentially done in 4 days. I'm only human..

but no one cares. that doesn't matter. no one will know that when they're watching the show...

why can't I just not care like everyone else?